The Backstory

I think it’s important for me to share my why for this blog, the backstory if you will. Before you can understand why I’m writing this blog, I feel like I need to explain the reasons that I am not. I am not writing this blog because I think I have something uniquely profound to share. I mean if you find something uniquely profound then that would be dope, but that’s not my goal. My goal is not to be a “Christian Blogger” or influencer. I think those things are great but as someone who has spent entirely too much of my life allowing people’s opinions to define what I do, I can’t intentionally put myself back into a position to do anything for the approval of others.

I’m not writing what I think others want or what others say they want. My aim is not to convert anyone or make anyone into a “better Christian”. If that were the goal I could stop writing now because only God can change people, I can only encourage them to let him. Besides, not every post will be faith based, but because my life is faith based, God is going to be all over this thing. I’m working on letting my love for Christ infect every area of my life so I can be like those artists who say “I’m not a christian rapper, I’m just a rapper who loves Christ” (lol). Most importantly, I am not writing this blog to give you any answers (I ain’t got the answers Sway!). If you read something and stumble across an answer feel free to  give the credit to God. Having all the right answers to whatever you’ve come here to discover is a standard that I won’t be able to live up to. 

Anyways, now that I’ve explained why I’m not here, let me tell you why I am here. I am creating this blog because God has put things on my heart that aren’t meant to stop with me. I became a serious Christian about 2 years ago during the summer before my Junior year of College when I was so broken and insecure that I had to find something to live for. Since then every time God has told me about myself or taught me something really life changing, I’ve gotten the overwhelming sense that I wasn’t supposed to just keep it for myself or even my close circle. God hasn’t necessarily called me to preach but he has called me to communicate. He’s called me to leverage the gifts he’s given me to speak life into my generation. He’s called me to break my silence because He’s got something to say and he wants to use my life to say it. I am simply writing what God has inspired me to share of my life in the hopes that through my words I can give a platform to the work God is doing in me. To keep it 1000, I didn’t want to put my heart out into the world where it would be vulnerable to all sorts of critiquing eyes. But, it’s not really about what I want. It’s about what I was made for. So, if sharing my truth enables someone to live there's then I’ve done what I came here to do. And if that someone is me, I’ll take that.

Vulnerability is an uncomfortable space for me but It's where I’m supposed to be so I figured I might as well put on my bonnet, take off my shoes, and get comfortable here. I want this blog to be a testament to the fact that we don’t get healed in the dark. God is calling me to a sort of radical transparency that honestly scares the hell out of me. However, I think that’s a good thing.  it wouldn’t require so much faith if it didn't. Besides I don’t want any hell in me anyways. (wait! Don’t leave me! Don’t leave me” hahaha) Anywho, I hope my writing can show that before we get free, we have to get honest. Even though I don’t have all the answers I hope that through this blog we can learn to ask better questions. I can’t promise that everything I write will be witty or relevant to you. However, I can promise that I will always try my best to point you to the light of Christ and it is my hope that together we can find freedom in the Son.